Monday, March 9, 2020
Rose's Corner: its been 7 years
Rose's Corner: its been 7 years: welcome guys if you have been following my journey you would know that it has been 7 years since we started our TTC journey, i never ever ...
its been 7 years
welcome guys
if you have been following my journey you would know that it has been 7 years since we started our TTC journey, i never ever would of thought i would be in this situation. after our youngest daughter was born we decided to try right away for another baby, we knew it might take awhile as it had taken 2 years just to conceive her.
i was diagnosed with secondary infertility problems back in 2015, they didn't know exactly know what the problem was so they just gave a diagnosis. well fast forward to 2020 and here i am with endometriosis stage 4, so on top of that being diabetic my chances of conceiving are 10 - 15 % due to the ENDO aging my reproductive system and then it don't make it any better that i just turned 40 last month.
hearing everything was very overwhelming and very heartbreaking. in 2017 we managed to get pregnant and carried a beautiful baby boy but when i was 12 weeks we miscarried, as you can imagine it was very heart breaking and to make things worst we had been trying for over 4 years at that time.
we still haven't been able to get pregnant and its very stressful and heart breaking, a lot of people always say just be blessed with what you have, and if you know us you also know we are more than blessed, but what some don't understand is that the heart knows what it wants and no matter how many times a day you try not to think about it you always sit there thinking about it or even crying.
there are so many couples out there who can't have kids and my heart truly breaks for them, the pain is unbearable. due to the fact that we already have kids we are expected to sit down and not talk about the difficulty of not being able to have kids as we already have. what some people don't know is a lot of large families struggle with infertility and they keep silence as that's how society wants us to be.
we are expected to sit in silence and suffer as we have kids and we should be grateful and stop being greedy in their eyes. what they don't know is that we hurt, we cry, we are devastated just as much, its hard to sit down and talk to anyone about the issues we face as we are always judged. one of the most questions that everyone ask's is. well you can't afford another child. well let me tell you, if you put a price on any of your children then maybe there is something wrong with you, for my child is not a price tag and they have never been short of anything. if GOD brought you through it then GOD shall get you through it.
our family is just an average family, yes we struggle at times, we pinch budgets from here to there. we live off a lot of lists and budgets and we coupon and do things on a strict budget. yet while i sit here i can't say that they have ever missed out on anything, i think they have got to experience more than some other kids have. so its very hard to hear someone put a price tag on a child or even look at them that way.
we all live a very different life style from each other and that's how it was intended, so therefor we shouldn't judge one another for we choose to live our path and we should allow others to live there way.
i wanted to write this as an introduction again to this blog and its make over. i wanted to bring you on this journey with me that i am embarking to giving myself one last year to perhaps if GOD saw it fit to bless us again.
while there are some treatments out there and i am getting a laparoscopy (not sure when yet) to reduce the pain that i go through, i wanted to ask you for your prayers on this journey and invite you to follow along with us.
i will be adding some videos on our channel and hoping it can help someone out there and not suffer in silent like i have.
if you have read this far i want to say thank you so much, it truly means a lot to me.
so until next time
stay blessed
blessings
Rose`
if you have been following my journey you would know that it has been 7 years since we started our TTC journey, i never ever would of thought i would be in this situation. after our youngest daughter was born we decided to try right away for another baby, we knew it might take awhile as it had taken 2 years just to conceive her.
i was diagnosed with secondary infertility problems back in 2015, they didn't know exactly know what the problem was so they just gave a diagnosis. well fast forward to 2020 and here i am with endometriosis stage 4, so on top of that being diabetic my chances of conceiving are 10 - 15 % due to the ENDO aging my reproductive system and then it don't make it any better that i just turned 40 last month.
hearing everything was very overwhelming and very heartbreaking. in 2017 we managed to get pregnant and carried a beautiful baby boy but when i was 12 weeks we miscarried, as you can imagine it was very heart breaking and to make things worst we had been trying for over 4 years at that time.
we still haven't been able to get pregnant and its very stressful and heart breaking, a lot of people always say just be blessed with what you have, and if you know us you also know we are more than blessed, but what some don't understand is that the heart knows what it wants and no matter how many times a day you try not to think about it you always sit there thinking about it or even crying.
there are so many couples out there who can't have kids and my heart truly breaks for them, the pain is unbearable. due to the fact that we already have kids we are expected to sit down and not talk about the difficulty of not being able to have kids as we already have. what some people don't know is a lot of large families struggle with infertility and they keep silence as that's how society wants us to be.
we are expected to sit in silence and suffer as we have kids and we should be grateful and stop being greedy in their eyes. what they don't know is that we hurt, we cry, we are devastated just as much, its hard to sit down and talk to anyone about the issues we face as we are always judged. one of the most questions that everyone ask's is. well you can't afford another child. well let me tell you, if you put a price on any of your children then maybe there is something wrong with you, for my child is not a price tag and they have never been short of anything. if GOD brought you through it then GOD shall get you through it.
our family is just an average family, yes we struggle at times, we pinch budgets from here to there. we live off a lot of lists and budgets and we coupon and do things on a strict budget. yet while i sit here i can't say that they have ever missed out on anything, i think they have got to experience more than some other kids have. so its very hard to hear someone put a price tag on a child or even look at them that way.
we all live a very different life style from each other and that's how it was intended, so therefor we shouldn't judge one another for we choose to live our path and we should allow others to live there way.
i wanted to write this as an introduction again to this blog and its make over. i wanted to bring you on this journey with me that i am embarking to giving myself one last year to perhaps if GOD saw it fit to bless us again.
while there are some treatments out there and i am getting a laparoscopy (not sure when yet) to reduce the pain that i go through, i wanted to ask you for your prayers on this journey and invite you to follow along with us.
i will be adding some videos on our channel and hoping it can help someone out there and not suffer in silent like i have.
if you have read this far i want to say thank you so much, it truly means a lot to me.
so until next time
stay blessed
blessings
Rose`
Monday, July 24, 2017
Vegan Blueberry Muffins
VEGAN BLUEBERRY MUFFINS
WHAT?
YES!! you heard right vegan blueberry muffins and guilt free with no diary.
I have also made a video on this so i will go ahead and link it in here for you guys.
So let me get right into this and help you make them too as i know you are wanting something sweet too.
for this you will need:
2 CUPS OF UNBLEACHED FLOUR
1 CUP OF CANE ORGANIC SUGAR
1 CUP OF ALMOND MILK
LEMON ZEST OF 1 1/2 LEMONS
1 TABLESPOON OF BAKING SODA
1/2 TEASPOON OF SALT
1 TABLESPOON OF ORGANIC APPLE CIDER
3/4 CUP OF VEGETABLE OIL
1 CUP OF BLUEBERRIES
Pre heat you oven to 375 degrees
In a large bowl add all your dry ingredients and mix together.
Start by adding your oil, apple cider vinegar and milk.
Mix together until you form a nice cake batter. slowly add your blueberries ( make sure you don't Over Mix as they will bleed) i managed to get 12 by filling them up to the top.
Place them in the oven for about 15-20 minutes, or until a tooth pick comes out clean. to be honest mine took around 25 minutes. i guess it all depends on your oven.
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SERIOUSLY Y'all got to try these, my kids also loved them.
So here you go guys make sure you try it and leave me a comment down below in the comment box. Also check out the video on YouTube for the full description.
Thanks again for stopping by and checking out my blog, please don/t forget to head on over to our channel for more recipes and some daily life videos of a large family.
Blessings my friends
Wednesday, July 19, 2017
Vegan Curry
VEGAN CURRY
Lately it's been a little tricky trying to replace some foods that i actually like and some that i love, one of them was curry.
I sat down thinking of many foods that would be good to make curry with and foods that i had in my fridge too. so i found three foods that i had in the house and went with it. i really wanted to add cauliflower to my list but i was out and i sure was not going to go out just for one item so i substituted. so i want to share with you this amazing curry recipe and i hope you enjoy it as much as i did.
this is what you will need:
Half a head of cabbage
3 potatoes
1 1/2 cup of barley
curry powder
garlic powder
pepper
red pepper flakes
minced onion
1 can coconut milk
2 cups of water
Cut the cabbage into small diced pieces and place it in your pot, cut your potatoes into small pieces too or the size you like, add your barley and your coconut milk and water.
start adding your spices, i left out how much curry and red pepper flakes as everyone has there own hotness they can handle, i actually like mine hot so i add more curry and flakes. i do not add salt due to the fact the curry gives it enough flavor and i sometimes think curry can be salty in itself. i will leave that to you and see how you like the flavor.
i did use quick barley rather then boiling it first so that cut my time in half.
once i added all of the other ingredients i let it cook on medium heat till it came to a bubbling boil then turned it down to slow and let it cook for about 30 minutes till it all thickened up.
Make sure you do babysit it and keep stirring it every 5-8 minutes as the barley doubles in it size.
I do have another version of this with cauliflower and carrots but i was out of both so i went with a new one.
I did enjoy it and i would make it again that's for sure, i just missed those ingredients, but y'all know what its like when you get a craving.
So if you have another version or have made this please leave me a comment and let me know how it came. leave some feedback and i hope you will enjoy the rest of your day.
thanks for stopping by, don't forget to take a minute and head on over to my channel on YouTube for more updates and recipes.
Lately it's been a little tricky trying to replace some foods that i actually like and some that i love, one of them was curry.
I sat down thinking of many foods that would be good to make curry with and foods that i had in my fridge too. so i found three foods that i had in the house and went with it. i really wanted to add cauliflower to my list but i was out and i sure was not going to go out just for one item so i substituted. so i want to share with you this amazing curry recipe and i hope you enjoy it as much as i did.
this is what you will need:
Half a head of cabbage
3 potatoes
1 1/2 cup of barley
curry powder
garlic powder
pepper
red pepper flakes
minced onion
1 can coconut milk
2 cups of water
Cut the cabbage into small diced pieces and place it in your pot, cut your potatoes into small pieces too or the size you like, add your barley and your coconut milk and water.
start adding your spices, i left out how much curry and red pepper flakes as everyone has there own hotness they can handle, i actually like mine hot so i add more curry and flakes. i do not add salt due to the fact the curry gives it enough flavor and i sometimes think curry can be salty in itself. i will leave that to you and see how you like the flavor.
i did use quick barley rather then boiling it first so that cut my time in half.
once i added all of the other ingredients i let it cook on medium heat till it came to a bubbling boil then turned it down to slow and let it cook for about 30 minutes till it all thickened up.
Make sure you do babysit it and keep stirring it every 5-8 minutes as the barley doubles in it size.
I do have another version of this with cauliflower and carrots but i was out of both so i went with a new one.
I did enjoy it and i would make it again that's for sure, i just missed those ingredients, but y'all know what its like when you get a craving.
So if you have another version or have made this please leave me a comment and let me know how it came. leave some feedback and i hope you will enjoy the rest of your day.
thanks for stopping by, don't forget to take a minute and head on over to my channel on YouTube for more updates and recipes.
Friday, June 2, 2017
DISNEY'S EPCOT FROZEN FOREVER
EPCOT has never been a favorite park of mine, i have always found it pretty boring to a point, or maybe there is not much of interest for me? not sure.
So the other day hubby and i had a date and we decided to go there as after months of trying to get on the FROZEN FOREVER RIDE i finally got us a fast pass, can i say it was worth the wait and i cant wait to go back on it, the ride was a whole 5 minute and was AMAZING!!!
i do have the footage of the ride also of me screaming at the drop, yes you guessed i am not a coaster fan.
So anyway if you have been to Epcot and walked round the park you will know you have to walk through country's to get to Norway, so what should of been a left turn passed Mexico we took a right turn and walked the whole park when it was 99 degrees out, as much as i love Disney guys i was hating it, especially when it was just suppose to be a five minute walk, but nope leave it to us to take the 30 minute walk in blazing hot sun, when we stopped i felt everything spinning, ain't that fun ( sarcastic laugh here )
the first thing that comes out of my mouth is I SEE TROLLS, way to go Rose!!! seriously i did see the trolls and right there it said FROZEN.................... can i tell you how happy and no lets go back, how happy i was. it was so cold in there. we were sweating like we just ran a marathon people!!!!
so we got into the boat and first thing you see is OLAF and SVEN. I AM IN LOVE. here is the link to the video on our facebook page, don't forget to like it to keep up with me and the family. https://www.facebook.com/bryanfamily8/
so after going around the park like we did which i haven't done since 2015 i have gained more respect for Epcot, it still don't make the top 2 which is Hollywood and magic kingdom but i think i am going to love it more with that said.
i also would love to mention that if you ever want a blueberry muffin the sunshine seasons in future world has the best muffins ever, what was even more great they were real mushy blueberries if you love blueberry muffins you will understand what i mean. i have some other EPCOT things to share with you about the pressed pennies and some other stuff but that will be for next time. i also have some very exciting and fun Disney crafts coming up so stay tuned guys.
ROSE~
So the other day hubby and i had a date and we decided to go there as after months of trying to get on the FROZEN FOREVER RIDE i finally got us a fast pass, can i say it was worth the wait and i cant wait to go back on it, the ride was a whole 5 minute and was AMAZING!!!
i do have the footage of the ride also of me screaming at the drop, yes you guessed i am not a coaster fan.
So anyway if you have been to Epcot and walked round the park you will know you have to walk through country's to get to Norway, so what should of been a left turn passed Mexico we took a right turn and walked the whole park when it was 99 degrees out, as much as i love Disney guys i was hating it, especially when it was just suppose to be a five minute walk, but nope leave it to us to take the 30 minute walk in blazing hot sun, when we stopped i felt everything spinning, ain't that fun ( sarcastic laugh here )
the first thing that comes out of my mouth is I SEE TROLLS, way to go Rose!!! seriously i did see the trolls and right there it said FROZEN.................... can i tell you how happy and no lets go back, how happy i was. it was so cold in there. we were sweating like we just ran a marathon people!!!!
so we got into the boat and first thing you see is OLAF and SVEN. I AM IN LOVE. here is the link to the video on our facebook page, don't forget to like it to keep up with me and the family. https://www.facebook.com/bryanfamily8/
so after going around the park like we did which i haven't done since 2015 i have gained more respect for Epcot, it still don't make the top 2 which is Hollywood and magic kingdom but i think i am going to love it more with that said.
i also would love to mention that if you ever want a blueberry muffin the sunshine seasons in future world has the best muffins ever, what was even more great they were real mushy blueberries if you love blueberry muffins you will understand what i mean. i have some other EPCOT things to share with you about the pressed pennies and some other stuff but that will be for next time. i also have some very exciting and fun Disney crafts coming up so stay tuned guys.
ROSE~
Friday, May 26, 2017
Changes
hey guys!!
for a few months or more i have been trying to decide what to do with myself, i love being a mom and wife but i am at the stage in life where i need more. i decided on many things but no of them felt right. after praying it finally hit me, there are two things besides my family that i love and enjoy and those are Disney and Writing, so after talking to my husband ( he gives great advice) i have decided to go for it and add those together and just about about Disney and some other things. i know personally when i travel with six kids i can't afford much so i wanted to do some tips and ideas on how to get the most out of everything or even how to plan a vacation when you are struggling. so i hope you guys will come along and join me on this new adventure. i am so excited guys i can't even tell you and i really hope you let me share that with you!!
along with all the Disney magic i will be making time to make at least one craft weekly that is Disney themed off course and also make some cute magical Disney headbands.
i cant tell you how excited this makes me feel, i have always had a great passion for Disney and writing and now to just put them together is a dream. so i will end this on stay very tuned for in the next day or so you will see a post of an official start to a Disney blog. i will still post some things from our channel here and recipes.
Rose ~
for a few months or more i have been trying to decide what to do with myself, i love being a mom and wife but i am at the stage in life where i need more. i decided on many things but no of them felt right. after praying it finally hit me, there are two things besides my family that i love and enjoy and those are Disney and Writing, so after talking to my husband ( he gives great advice) i have decided to go for it and add those together and just about about Disney and some other things. i know personally when i travel with six kids i can't afford much so i wanted to do some tips and ideas on how to get the most out of everything or even how to plan a vacation when you are struggling. so i hope you guys will come along and join me on this new adventure. i am so excited guys i can't even tell you and i really hope you let me share that with you!!
along with all the Disney magic i will be making time to make at least one craft weekly that is Disney themed off course and also make some cute magical Disney headbands.
i cant tell you how excited this makes me feel, i have always had a great passion for Disney and writing and now to just put them together is a dream. so i will end this on stay very tuned for in the next day or so you will see a post of an official start to a Disney blog. i will still post some things from our channel here and recipes.
Rose ~
Sunday, March 19, 2017
complaining?
This week has been a little hard, have you ever had a week when you sit down and actually look deep down and say! Huh you know what I don't like where this is going and then realize that you have no one to talk to or even comsole you.
I was starting to feel a little more content feeling we are closer to become home owners only to find out nope we are even further! Like seriously?.. this ain't even funny
So plan is well don't know the plan and I'm tired of making plans! Like so over it.
Best thing to do is just to save up enough funds and just buy on our own.
Problem is here down in Florida is not as good as up North when it comes to wages, I sure do miss that from Maryland.
Unfortunately we put everything we had into moving and I know I shouldn't be complaining especially you only being here 5 months, I guess I am home sick, or shall I say state sick? LOL is that even possible? Then again only here in Florida do I get to go to Disney weekly or go to the beach every day! See I'm just a confused human being who does not know what she wants,, well I do, it's just not happening.
As I turn to my bible and read inspirational words and find gods warmth I still feel down and just simply confused.
I know the lord has a plan for me and it's not time to uncover it, I just feel alone and emotional.
So I ask you to keep me in your prayers for uplift and positive thinking.
So if you read this without closing the page god bless you for hearing me complain.
I have some updates coming to this blog and some special content
R
I was starting to feel a little more content feeling we are closer to become home owners only to find out nope we are even further! Like seriously?.. this ain't even funny
So plan is well don't know the plan and I'm tired of making plans! Like so over it.
Best thing to do is just to save up enough funds and just buy on our own.
Problem is here down in Florida is not as good as up North when it comes to wages, I sure do miss that from Maryland.
Unfortunately we put everything we had into moving and I know I shouldn't be complaining especially you only being here 5 months, I guess I am home sick, or shall I say state sick? LOL is that even possible? Then again only here in Florida do I get to go to Disney weekly or go to the beach every day! See I'm just a confused human being who does not know what she wants,, well I do, it's just not happening.
As I turn to my bible and read inspirational words and find gods warmth I still feel down and just simply confused.
I know the lord has a plan for me and it's not time to uncover it, I just feel alone and emotional.
So I ask you to keep me in your prayers for uplift and positive thinking.
So if you read this without closing the page god bless you for hearing me complain.
I have some updates coming to this blog and some special content
R
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welcome guys if you have been following my journey you would know that it has been 7 years since we started our TTC journey, i never ever ...
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EPCOT has never been a favorite park of mine, i have always found it pretty boring to a point, or maybe there is not much of interest for m...
